CHANGE.
i'm talking again about the people i love, and the people i hate. I'm gunna just admit it here. i hate not having friends, but having them make me hate them...if that makes sence.
everywhere you go your gunna run into the "big mouth", "whiner", the "ritch girl", the "athletics", and every other group of people. its just wierd when they all come together ...most of the time is well...but when things go bad...you want to take out your voodoo dollie and stick a pin right through their head. i think i want to get into voodoo just to release stress...but you know what...writing is probly better in that sense...
probly on Thursday this all would blow off....but i'm not sure how thats possible. but knowing myself, it'll probly be over when i see everyone and totally forget. maybe..maybe not.
i would write what happened...but then i'd have to go back and remember everything. and i'm suppose to be making paper roses/flowers/carnations. *sigh* forget it though.
okay i will play the blame game since its so annoying!!!----
BECCA WILL BE BACCON !!!! AND JESSICA TOO. THIS IS WHAT I'M GOING TO DO....
NOTHING! absolutly nothing. whenever Becca throws alittle cry fit jessica is running to her side...and me and megan go to see whats wrong as "good and caring friends" we don't even care anymore. since i've been here its been like 3 times she's done this and its really old. but she totally was like "go away, i don't want any more people!!" earlier we were getting along great. and its just UGH.
maybe it wasn't such a good idea i came to TG. but now i'm here and i can't change my popularity level until atleast next school year...bleh. i'll be dead by then i hope because i can't take another day with becca and jessica.
So megan and I are like ignoring jessica and Becca now. but i can't since earlier we (becca and i) started the Madalion hunt together. and we are gunna find it!! if i don't kill her first. i'm so mad at her!!! and she's comming in early tomarrow so we can look at 6:45!!! i get there at 6:30 and i usually do my homework until like 7:00 and then i mingle. so it sucks.....very much.
it may not be the right thing...but its what sounds good now.
Today at lunch everyone got their "match maker" test results. i don't even know what they are really. and nate let me see his (though i knew no one oh his list) and megan let me see hers. but jessica wouldn't let me see hers. and then she showed megan. but not me...then megan told becca and becca told me. but becca wasn't suppose to tell me. but who cares if somone is on somone's top list...its not like i really give a noodle.
well tomarrows stupid valentines day...yup...again becca goes and tells the world what i told her. XP i told her i liked nate alittle bit..just tiny bit. for like a week. but then there was this one guy who's in my physics class and he was looking at me several times...and he smiled at me. ^_^ smiles are good they make you feel better. so do hugs. but not when they are from evil people....so anywyas. i think i have a crush on him now. *sigh* i wish it was summer already... then nothing would matter and i can go out on the trampoline and jump to some music. and sleep in the sun. *dreams*
good night and yes i'm anti-valentines day.
lets hope i surivive tomarrow shall we and maybe i'd write about it.
-----Dancing in Daisys---
lets run through a field, where nothing should surpass.
a dream of the sun will always last. the blue sky and the sun shining down. spinning round and around. i don't stop. until i'm dizzy and then--ploap--. into the patch of daisy flowers. i lay there for hours and hours.
i look to the sky, and see a bird. i look to the sky and watch the clouds go bye. someday i'll be looking down, from heaven above, there is no sound. there is only light. what a beautyful thing, a perfect delight.
-----------STaGer------
Stager my new pen name. ^_^ don't you like it? well i'm off to dream land...good night.
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